Justin Timberlake - Amnesia

Keeps coming closer

I don't, but she thinks I know her

Beautiful smile with those sad eyes

That was my type

Amnesia that's over

I can see your breathing, girl, is colder

I can see you need me but I don't care

My whole memory of me and love

Gone so far from me girl

It's not fair

I could feel it almost start to change (almost starts to change)

But then it hurts too much

That's when it starts to fade

So cold baby, now I'm going crazy

I don't know why you need me alone

If it was true, if it was you

Don't you think?

Don't you think I would know?

Amnesia, every memory fades away till it's gone

Where did you go?

Amnesia, went from everything to nothing

No we anymore, she's a stranger that I used to know

Peaceful for those of us

So happy, so in love

Tell me what happened

Who are they? Where did they go?

And when was enough, enough

When did all the fire turn colder?

When did your heart start to beat slower?

My whole memory of me in love,is gone so far from me, It's not fair

And I can feel it almost start to change (almost start to change)

But it just hurts to much, I let it go away

So cold baby, now I'm going crazy

I don't know why you need me alone

If it was true, if it was you

Don't you think?

Don't you think I would know?

Amnesia, every memory fades away till it's gone

Where did you go?

Amnesia, went from everything to nothing

No we anymore, she's a stranger that I used to know

I can feel it almost start to change (almost start to change)

But then it hurts too much I let it go away

So cold baby (so cold), now I'm going crazy

I don't know why you need me alone

If it was true, if it was you

Don't you think?

Don't you think I would know?

Amnesia, every memory fades away till it's gone

Where did you go?

Amnesia, everything and nothing

No we anymore she's a stranger

Amnesia, every memory fades away till it's gone

Where did you go?

Amnesia, everything and nothing

No we anymore she's a stranger that I used to know

And I don't know you anymore

Everything to nothing

Everything to nothing

She's a stranger that I used to know

Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia

Go on and tear me apart

And do it again tomorrow

I almost forgot

Who you are

I try to forget about it every time I see ya, See ya

Thought I could do without it

Now I know I need ya, need ya

This is turning into some kind, some kind of amnesia, I need ya

Memories fade away

Love is so insane,

I try to forget about it, every time I see ya, see ya

Thought I could do without it

Now I know I need ya, need ya

This is turning into some kind, some kind of amnesia, I need ya

Memories fade away

Love is so insane

So tear me apart and do it again tomorrow

I almost forgot who we are

I'll let you drive me crazy for another day

Isn't this love insane, insane? Yeah..

New beginning

Long time no talk.

Happy New Year 2014, btw :)

Masih dengan dinda yang sama. I don’t know what to share but terlalu banyak hal untuk kutulis. Awkward, absurd, annoying, exciting, funny, surprising, confusing, sadness, happiness..

Aku baru menyelesaikan term pertamaku di bangku kuliah and now is the first long holiday. Pengalaman yang aku dapat di semester awal ini apa saja? Too much and too precious. Mulai dari kegiatan sehari-hari di tempat tinggal baru, dunia pertemanan, pendidikan, and the last one is love life.

Nyaman disana? Nyaman, tenang. Bertemu banyak teman baru yang tentunya ngga semua bisa pro sama aku haha. Pendidikan? Baru beradaptasi, meski ada beberapa kendala but Alhamdulillah bisa berjalan lancar dengan IPK yang masih bisa dan harus ku-syukuri. Love life? Was great, didn’t have a good ending but I had a lot of beautiful moments sweet memories and nice experience. And also grateful with it.

Still with my bad habit, sebanyak-banyaknya teman yang aku punya pada akhirnya in half of my time I rather choose to be alone. Ngga sabar untuk jalanin term kedua, but I don’t expect for anything. Just let this life flow as a water, let the wind bring me toward better, let the rain give me more and more the meaning of life.

Maroon 5 - Wipe Your Eyes

I'm afraid that I gotta do what I gotta do

But if I let you go, where you gonna go? 

We gotta make a change, time to turn the page 

Something isn't right, I don't wanna fight you 

We've been through tougher times, you know it gets worse 

We can turn this around please let me be first 

And as I feel your tears spilling on my shirt 

Something isn't right I don't wanna fight you

Hey you, come over and let me embrace you

I know that I'm causing you pain too 

But remember if you need to cry 

I'm here to wipe your eyes

Tonight before you fall asleep

I run my thumb across your cheek (across your cheek)

Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

I know I made you feel this way 

You gotta breathe, we'll be okay (be okay)

Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

Oh nah nah oh nah nah nah nah 

'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

Oh nah nah oh nah nah nah nah

When did we cross the line? 

How could we forget?

Why do we let the pressure get into our heads? 

Your broken heart requires all of my attention'cause something isn't right, I don't wanna fight you

Hey you, come over and let me embrace you 

I know that I'm causing you pain too

But remember if you need to cry 

I'm here to wipe your eyes

Tonight before you fall asleep

I run my thumb across your cheek (across your cheek) 

Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes 

I know I made you feel this way

You gotta breathe, we'll be okay (be okay) 

Cry 'cause I'm here to wipe your eyes

Please don't lose your faith 

Don't worry 'cause I'm here to keep you safe 

I promise if you let me see your face

That I won't let you down 

I won't let you down

I'm here to wipe your eyes...

Avril Lavigne - I Love You

La la.. La la la la

La la.. La la la

I like your smile

I like your vibe

I like your style

But that's not why I love you

And I, I like the way

You're such a star

But that's not why I love you

Hey

Do you feel, do you feel me?

Do you feel what I feel, too?

Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you... Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is all that we've been through

And that's why I love you

La la.. La la la la

La la.. La la la

I like the way you misbehave

When we get wasted

But that's not why I love you

And how you keep your cool

When I am complicated

But that's not why I love you

Hey

Do you feel, do you feel me?

Do you feel what I feel, too?

Do you need, do you need me?

Do you need me?

Yeah - Oh.. Oh

Even though we didn't make it through

I am always here for you

Yeah, yeah, yeah

Global Warming

Kita semua tau apa arti Global warming. Ya, global warming biasa disebut Pemanasan Global. Meningkatnya kadar karbon dioksida sangat berpengaruh terhadap suhu udara dan membuat bumi perlahan-lahan menjadi panas. Kita tau kalo penggunaan bahan bakar yang berasal dari fosil tumbuhan atau hewan (misalnya kotoran hewan ternak) merupakan salah satu faktor tumbuhnya pemanasan global di bumi. Beberapa tahun terakhir semua penghuni bumi ngerasain banget gimana panasnya sinar matahari, bener2 nyengat. Gak usah jauh2 nyari tau pendapat mereka dan tanyain orang satu2, kita bisa liat sendiri di timeline twitter banyak yang ngeluh : "di luar panas banget", "gila panasnyaaa" dan banyak ekspresi lain.

Sekitar dua hari yang lalu, tiba2 muncul perasaan penasaran yang bikin aku mau melakukan yaa bisa dibilang penelitian kecil hehehe. Aku lagi siramin halaman rumah di tengah hari, aku siramin aspal depan rumah dengan banyak air di tengah sinar matahari dan tujuanku buat ngeliat seberapa cepetnya sinar matahari itu bisa ngeringin aspal yang udah disiram banyak air. Ini ada hasil fotonya :

Pukul 12.51

Pukul 12.53

Pukul 12.55

Pukul 12.57

Pukul 12.59

See? Emang sih waktu itu sinar paling nyengat sekitar jam 12.53 ke 12.55 haaah serem liatnya-_- Sebenernya mau ngamatin sampe bener2 kering seperti semula. But guess what? Disaat panas yang terik gitu tiba2 turun hujan! Kalo kata Cece ya....berarti berkah namanya haha.

Ok cukup dulu bloggingnya. SAVE OUR EARTH ya, guys. See you

Dhismaw

This is about my little-best friend..

 

Namanya Dhisma Pandansari, lahir 16 maret 1995. She is so kind, cheerful, cute, funny, and much more about her that can't be mentioned one by one. First, kita ngga saling kenal.

Waktu itu hari pertama masuk sekolah. Ya, kita duduk di kelas 1 SD. Aku ngga begitu inget gimana kejadiannya, yang paling membekas cuma saat Dhisma dateng terlambat ke kelas dianter Ibunya dan dia duduk di kursi paling belakang. Ngga lama ada anak cowok entah itu siapa lari2 di sekitar meja Dhisma trus ngejatohin serutan atau alat tulis apa gitu deh. Aku cuma ngeliatin mukanya yang udah cemberut, aku ambilin alat tulisnya yang jatoh, and... I think that's where we started to know each other.

Sejak itu aku jadi suka ceritain dia ke Ibu. Ngga jarang juga aku main ke rumahnya kalo pulang sekolah karna emang jarak rumah kita ngga terlalu jauh. Ibunya sama Ibuku juga cepet akrab & pernah berkali2 main ke rumah dia sampe jam 9 atau 10 malem. Kita suka main ps bareng, main jual-jualan seolah2 kita ada di pasar swalayan, main karet, bola bekel, buka butik2an, restaurant, mainin uang monopoli, bahkan sampe mandi bareng hahahaha ups... Oh iya, dia juga yang manggil aku "dindaw" pertama kali :p
Pokoknya masa2 kecil yang berkesan. Tapi pertemanan kita juga ngga semulus yang dibayangin, ngga jarang kita musuhan meskipun ujung2nya nyatu lagi. Dhisma juga orang pertama yang aku kabarin waktu ayahku pergi.

Sampe akhirnya kita lulus, masuk smp, duduk di sekolah yang berbeda. Aku rasain lost contact 2 tahun lebih sama dia, cuma sekali dua kali kita smsan atau wall2an di facebook. Kita sama2 sibuk dan punya temen baru di sekolah baru. Udah setahun dua tahun itu kita baru ketemu lagi rasanya... Awkward. Trus ngga terasa kita duduk di bangku kelas 3 smp, waktu rasanya cepet banget maksain kita buat lulus (lagi) dan aku dapet kabar kalo Dhisma bakal pindah ke Jojga. Did you know how it feel??? Sedih, pasti. Aku kasih novel lanjutan Spring in london, Auntumn in paris, yang aku lupa judulnya apa haha. Aku ajak dia jalan2 di hari terakhir dia di tangerang, besok malemnya kita ngobrol sampe malem di kamarnya yang tinggal lemari baju dan beberapa barang2 disitu. Akhirnya Dhisma pindah...

Pernah kita ketemuan di kfc satu kali, aku kasih dia kado ulang tahun waktu itu. Tapi sebentaaar banget, ngga sampe 2 jam kita tatapan muka. Aku juga dapet sedikit cerita kalo Dhisma ikut sekolah model disana. I proud of you. :D

Ini terakhir di KFC

I have a song for you, by Gita Gutawa.

Sahabat Kecilku


Kau jauh melangkah
Melewati batas waktu
Menjauh dariku
Akankah kita berjumpa kembali
Sahabat kecilku
Masihkah kau ingat aku
Saat kau lantunkan
Segala cita dan tujuan mulia


Tak ada satupun masa
Seindah saat kita bersama
Bermain-main hingga lupa waktu
Mungkinkah kita kan mengulangnya


Tiada tiada lagi tawamu
Yang selalu menemani segala sedihku
Tiada tiada lagi candamu
Yang selalu menghibur di saat ku lara
Bila malam tiba
Ku selalu mohonkan Tuhan
Menjaga jiwamu
Hingga suatu masa bertemu lagi


Sahabat kecilku, masihkah kau ingat aku...

<3<3<3

Ayah

Apa kamu pernah berfikir bagaimana menjalani hidup suatu saat nanti saat orang tuamu tiada?

Its been 6 years. I miss my dad too much much and much. Aku tau ini bukan pilihan, bukan kemauan, bukan permintaan, bukan keinginan atau apalah namanya. Aku harus jalanin semuanya tanpa persiapan, bahkan ngga ada sedikitpun bayangan-bayangan untuk hari ini. Hari dimana aku harus jalanin keseharian dengan perasaan "sepi". Hari dimana aku harus nerima saat pulang sekolah nanti ngga akan ada yang menyambut aku duduk di warung depan sambil merokok dan minum kopi. Hari dimana aku harus beradaptasi dengan rasa kangen yang bakal terus-terusan push batin tiap detik.

Aku yakin Allah tau kalo aku sayang banget sama ayah meskipun aku ngga pernah mengatakan itu kepada beliau, tapi aku lebih yakin kalo Allah lebih sayang sama ayah. Aku berharap ayah bisa sembuh biar dia ngga tersiksa lagi karna sakitnya, tapi Allah lebih tau gimana caranya nyembuhin ayah dalam waktu yang aku rasa singkat itu.

Do you know, dad? Dinda udah kelas 2 SMA sekarang. Dan udah bisa nyetir mobil loh hahahaha seneng deh rasanya bisa nerusin ayah belajar mobil yang dulu sempet ketunda. Dinda inget banget waktu ayah bawa mobil masih kayak orang naik odong-odong, inget waktu ayah berentiin mobilnya di depan rumah dan itu ngerem mendadak. Meskipun samar-samar tapi dinda masih inget kok. Dinda juga inget suara terakhir ayah lewat telepon, waktu itu ayah jauuuuh di sebrang sana. Dinda selalu inget pesan terakhir ayah.

Jalanin keseharian tanpa ayah itu emang ngga seburuk yang dipikir. Tapi jalanin hidup dengan memandang ke segala arah, arah dimana aku bisa denger cerita temen-temen tentang ayahnya, arah dimana aku bisa liat anak-anak kecil yang digendong, ataupun remaja seumuran yang dirangkul & ngobrol berdua with their pa', arah dimana aku diajak ngobrol sama seorang 'ayah' siapapun dia. I know ngga cuma aku yang ngalamin ini, bahkan banyak yang lebih kurang beruntung dari aku. However cuma Allah yang tau gimana rasanya. And I-must-do-it.


Yang aku mau sekarang cuma satu. Mau bisa liat ayah lagi...

"It feels like you're falling in the hole that you don't know how deep it is. You never asked for the promised. You never want to hear the promises again, you don't want the promises. Here you are, you're real and never same as yesterday. You just want to be better with yourself."

Avril Lavigne - Complicated

Chill out

What you yellin for

Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

I like you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talkin to me one-on-one
But you become

Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody els gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're somethin else
Where you are ain't where it's at you see
You're makin me
Laugh out
When you strike a pose
Take off
All your preppy clothes
You know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become

Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turnin into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no

That's why I've never told anything to them. Because I'm sure that they would know one day by themselves.